I left Chico 6 months ago. We couldn’t take living like we were. I am so lost now. I feel totally disconnected from my community ( Paradise) I grew up in. I just have been a fog since the incident. Can’t even type the word f*re. I feel like I am so late to the mental recovery process. So lost. So alone.

I didn’t think it was going to be this difficult

  • hiring a lawyer because my insurance company
  • making that damn list for PG&E law suit
  • on and on and on and on

As you all know.

I miss you all, I miss the beauty, I miss running down the roads

I miss feeling safe

I miss my dog

Lost.